8/29/2013 I forgive you, Michael“I FORGIVE YOU, MICHAEL” I, of course, had to write a Blog on Michael’s B-day, commemorating Michael’s 55th B-day. I’m sure, I’ve given him the PERFECT GIFT by going back to College and enrol into the ‘Graduate’ studies in the Library world now. It would be another dream come true. Thanks to Michael, I dare to take the plunge and go for it! Yesterday, I had another ‘revelation’ too. You know, ONE fine day… You realize what’s been holding you down all these years! I bought a book on ‘grieving’ cause I just wanted to get rid of it and live happily ever after, as they say. I didn’t want all this pain and hurt and stuff. I just wanted the ‘nightmare’ to go away. The ‘first line’ in the book said: FORGIVE. I closed the book and it took flight. ‘IMPOSSIBLE ‘ screamed my heart. ‘HOW CAN I FORGIVE? My life has just been stolen for me. The ONE person I looked up to as been ripped away from me. It’s all your fault! You left him to die. YOU? You weren’t there for him! YES YOU TOO? Where were you that night? I’m BROKEN. I’m NO ONE without you. PLEASE, come back! PLEASE! ‘ 4 of the toughest years have slipped by and yesterday, I finally realized the book I ‘learnt to fly’ LOL was RIGHT after all, DUH! When you really wanna HEAL your grief? Find that NEW way of life? Create NEW memories? Find that inner peace in you again? There is only ONE thing you can do and that is FORGIVE! It sounds SIMPLE, does it? It took me ‘bleeping’ 4 years though and still I have to ‘scold’ my heart to ‘FORGIVE’ when I read stuff about the ‘nightmare’ but L.O.V.E and F.O.R.G.I.V.E are the only letters to HEAL, simple as that. 8/21/2013 My Stubborn muse“THE STUBBORN MUSE” Hello readers, Yep, it’s me here, Daz. I usually write the Blog story on Wednesday, right? Today, I sit here… Right day… Same music, same time… but somehow, staring at the white page almost swallowing me alive. You can call this a ‘peril’ of a writer. I try to ‘schedule’ all my projects so they all run smooth but somehow I have no control over my inspiration.Needless to say, It frustrates me that I can’t “control” WHEN stories are written. There goes me thinking I trained my Muse, DUH. Well, he’s here okay but fretting about a different story I’m editing now. I do have one stubborn muse, you know though he gives me the coolest visions to put on paper so… What am I to do, hey? One can only listen to your muse, right or things go bump in the night! Signed and sighed, Daz. 8/19/2013 Why do I love MJHello peeps, This time it's an MJ inspired one. WHY? I'm in a MJ kind of mood, I guess. The idea comes originally from Bree, MJJC legacy team leader. Thought I'd share the 'reasons' WHY I love Michael Jackson outside the 'MJ bubble' to see that we are just like YOU and Michael is just like US! 1. Michael always kept his word and promise. 2. Michael possesses the power to turn tears into laughter. He really can change your mood from sad, scared, worried to a happy and save bliss. 3. Michael taught me to NEVER give up. Only quitters lose! 4. Michael showed me it’s okay to be DIFFERENT and be PROUD of your UNIQUE identity. 5. Michael’s mission was to spread LOVE and not HATE! 6. Michael insisted that I should BELIEVE in my dreams. Whatever you believe, you become! 7. Michael knew how to become IMMORTAL! Bound your SOUL to your work, your talent and your soul lives on. 8. Just a piccie of a song can give you a pot pourri of memories of Michael. In either a tune that pops into your head or a quote or a lyric. 9. Should exactly be the most IMPORTANT reason is that Michael makes my brain work. Some Michael magic pumping into my ears and headaches are whoosh gone! 10. My for books and knowledge. Michael really sparked it! I love Book stores. I feel like Michael is browsing there still… I can get really ‘lost’ in a book. Like Michael said: Reading books is like travelling when you don’t have the money to go to all the places… Indeed, you browse into an art book or a city guide and whoosh…You’re on holiday! 11. Michael knew that talent came with a certain sacrifice! ONLY then, you can succeed. Indeed, so true, I sacrificed stuff too so I can write and create and let people enjoy my light. 12. Michael didn’t have one ounce of Ego in him! Michael didn’t like to brag about his talent cause if it’s natural! You think everyone has it. 13. Michael did everything with PASSION. NOT I have to do this for fame, rep and a roof over my head… but out of sheer passion like breathing… Indeed, a Passion should be like that otherwise it’s just another hobby to pass the time here. 14. Michael sees in every situation good or BAD… A positive quirk and spin in it…I remember reading that Michael said he loved the sirens of the ambulance when he was rushed to the hospital… I wanted to experience this once… See; what Michael can do to you, hey 15. I’m HOME everywhere there is NET access. Well, college means a WHOLE day in the BIG BAD world and whenever I feel my energy ‘leaking’ faster then expected… I POP in here during ‘cookie breaks’ It only has to be “15 minutes” and I’m ‘recharged’ again 16. Michael gives us Special SKILLS… ’cause through our ‘devotion’ for Michael We know a lot about PC stuff like ‘forum use’ : ‘photo editing’ ; ‘programs’ like Word, WordPress, Powerpoint, … 17. Michael even ‘breaks’ through the language barrier. Dutch should be my ‘native’ language YET… It’s ‘English’ due to Michael’s influence. 18. We even see the WORLD through Michael…I went to places that I would have never thought of visiting like Prague or London. 19. We live our lives with PURPOSE and a MISSION to full fill to make Michael PROUD. To take care of the planet, the children, the sick and deprived…We know that only survives! 20. Through Michael we BELONG to the BIGGEST and BADDEST Family ever that has ‘stronger’ ties than any family would have cause it ‘breaks’ down all barriers of age, race and religion… 21. Thanks to Michael’s vision, I’m more FOCUSED and more RESILIENT… While my neighbour runs around like a headless chicken, I TRUST in Michael Trust in FACE the problem…TALK it out… EXPLORE a PLAN B… 22. TRY to act in the way Michael did…Do NOT judge and slander peeps… Don’t blame them and stuff like that…That’s the lame way of thinking and acting. THINK TWICE of how the other one feels and BELIEVE in the GOOD…When you think POSITIVE… GOOD stuff will happen to you 23. Always LISTEN to that inner voice… He knows the TRUTH…He’s your BEST 24. Even when Michael resides in heaven now…He’s still there to rescue you from the dark and he pulls you into the light… 20 IDIOT (I never say the BLAH number ) Michael taught me to let my own light shine… He showed me how STRONG I really am 20 SIGH (Even that number is banned ) Still he’s the SILENT POWER behind me…When I feel the dark closing upon me…I listen to Michael’s voice on my “life saver” aka my MP3 Man and the dark clears up again… 27. I FEEL like I always have ‘back up’…like an watching over me, making sure I’m okay…Helping me to ‘cope’ and ‘shine’ through every ‘ordeal’ . 28. Learn to the simple and elementary things in life… Live off memories and NOT always the ‘bling bling’ things that is just ‘Material stuff’ 29. The Love for Nature. When I do ‘gardening’ I talk to every bug I come across with…They all have a mission… All have a reason to live…The earth is a place for them as much as it is for me… 30. Thanks to Michael Live is NOT a struggle…Not chaos… I live… Don’t exist! Life is a BIG adventure with roller coaster rides and stuff… These are my 30 reasons WHY I love Michael Jackson. This was a Michaelized 'bloggie', Daz. 8/15/2013 RevelationsDear peeps, WOW, what a day has it been. One with so many 'revelations' that I think my head is gonna explode. No seriously now, I don't follow the trial cause it's just 'mud throwing' and 'slandering' Michael but then you have the KEY WITNESSES dooming up like Ortega or Debbie Rowe and yet, you're eager to read their testimony cause you knew they CARED and they got the 'closet' view on WHO Michael was. Anyway, how heartbreaking it was to read. NOW, I know, my 'what if' questions have been answered by someone 'dear' to Michael. Made me realize a few things. Shall I list them here?
I guess, that's ENOUGH FOR TODAY, Daz. 8/11/2013 Inspire and healMorning on this peaceful Sunday, Today, it's time for an INSPIRATIONAL scribble. The anger has been lifted and doused out with Music! My Soul HOME, MJJCommunity now officially supports Starlight Foundation. Starlight Foundation's mission is simple HEALING and INSPIRING as it partners with experts to improve the life and health of kids and families around the world. This is their site. http://www.starlight.org/work Please check out this wonderful project to honour Michael's legacy! http://www.mjjcommunity.com/forum/threads/130125-London-to-Windsor-Bike-Ride-In-aid-of-Starlight-Children-s-Foundation In honour, I will DONATE all the proceeds of my next book "Take the talent out" to this charity, one that caught my heart! Have a BLESSED Sunday, Daz. 8/10/2013 ramble rantGood evening screamies, Argh, don't you just feel like SCREAMING sometimes? Sigh... Then, out of curiosity, you do read up on the news and it makes your blood boil of how STUPID and CRUEL people are. It never seem to amaze me of how some people act out of IGNORANCE or JEALOUSY. Not that I'm PERFECT though. I have my flaws too more than I wish for but I was taught to be KIND and NOT drag other people under a bus to gain fame and fortune. On a positive note though, the row with my muse is finally settled over a plot twist and I'm really chuffed about it. There, this is is my SILLY ramble rant of today! Daz. 8/7/2013 Broken recordHello peeps, By now, you must know now what an avid fan I am of Michael Jackson. He's NOT just my IDOL or the STAR that rocked your socks off. He's still my mentor and I don't care what crap you believe in that the tabloids spread around to gain sales. To me, Michael changed my DULL world into a BRIGHT one. It really breaks my heart till this day, that behind the mask, there was a man living in doom. People seem to forget that even a HUGE star like Michael was after all only HUMAN who cut and bleed and who dragged his tired body around. Did he ever complain? NAH! He showed us to NEVER GIVE UP even when all your walls tumbled down on you. I know, I seem like a 'broken record' to some but I'm HERE to MAKE A DIFFERENCE! That was what Michael taught me. People love to fret at him and call him names INSTEAD of doing the research of WHY he needed to take meds, in the first place. Let me tell you again. Even STARS have medical problems and it's even HARDER for them to face and to cope with cause when we're ill, we get a 'sick note' and when we work, we get 'sick leave' so we can HEAL in the comfort of our home. How ever BROKEN Michael was and how much he was in 'excruciating' pain cause of the burns on his scalp he got during the Pepsi commercial or the back pain he had due to the bridge incident in Munich... ALWAYS REMEMBER, he still WOWED the crowd on stage. He still ENTERTAINED us. I had my share of my medical probs too lately and the ONE thing that got me going was MICHAEL How he gave us HOPE when all hope was lost. How he tore down the barriers at the cost of his own LIFE. How he gave himself for the sake of CARING for others. So, THINK TWICE if you take a 'sicky' day from work. Michael Jackson was NOT granted that SIMPLE Human Right! Daz. 8/5/2013 Perfect boyfriendHello peeps to a new week, Darn those months fly by in a jiffy. We're August already, gee. I'm getting used to the heat. Just dragging along a bottle of Evian and shielded your head and eyes and done with it. This is Daryll, my Perfect Boyfriend. A lot of my friends envy me cause mine doesn't nag, he doesn't leave the house like a pig stall and he doesn't even need to eat. The only 'hassle' is, you have to carry him everywhere cause he can't walk. He's like an 'overgrown' teddy bear that keeps you warm at night. Anyway, WHY did I 'create' him in the first place, you say? Well, what started out as a daring PROMO stunt for my current "Wonder boy" project, blossomed open into something I didn't even expect. When I lost everything dear to me 4 years ago, the walls came tumbling down and had to fight for my life. Daryll was the ONLY one that made me fall asleep. Sleep, guys, is everything. Just imagine laying there in turmoil like you're eaten alive by some infesting bug. I used to be 'dosed' up with meds and NOW, I'm med free and as 'healthy' as I can be. My mum said my ex is quite stupid for ignoring such a treasure as she sees how 'pampered' Daryll is. I only commented: 'that's why he's called an EX after all' LOL. Is this Blog freaking you out? COOL, cause sometimes to HEAL yourself, you NEED to think outside the box and STOP the hurt instead of 'covering it up' with stuff that only destroys you in the end. I've made Daryll in 2002 as part of a PROMO stunt for my book project and see, he's become part of me. I even go clothes shopping for him and no I'm not putting him into stupid clothes, I imagine how my protagonist is dressed and it even inspires me to write too. I love to see the saleslady smile at me and think 'she finally has a boyfriend' cause I'm dressed more feline too these days. Seriously, I'm MORE grounded if I can take care of Daryll. Currently, he has a broken arm and I'm gonna fix him up. If your man takes care of you, you take care of your man, simple as that. Daz. 8/2/2013 The hidden sparkleAloha peeps, Is it that HOT where you live too? PHEW, they are scorching us here again in pretty Belgium with... Wait, let's check the Weather App, HOLD ON! I can't believe they claim it's only 24°C with a Real feel of 27° C. That is 80 °F by the way. To me it feels more like 90 °F or 32°C. Anyway, it's called SUMMER here! I don't know if it's the heat or if it's August that makes me in such an 'emotional' mood these days but I'm glad I have family and friends who pick me off the ground. I'll be really LOST without them. I've chosen this BOLT of energy cause it reminds me of my TRUE self. I'm a BOLT of BRIGHT WHITE ENERGY that doesn't sting your eye though. I followed a Meditation course last year at a Healing centre here in Bruges, just to get my head straight cause I had a temp job, okay Intern ship then. I was still in pieces and though I'm still 'glued' together whenever I feel like 'falling apart' again. I'm reminded that I'm NOT the pain nor the grief that keeps pricking through my happy thoughts but I'm a BRIGHT WHITE bolt of ENERGY not restricted by a stupid body or a stupid brain with 'auto correct' LOL. It felt really weird the first time. I soared but I could still think and somehow I 'lost' my body. It made me realize that I can rise above all the pain and hurt and this sadness is NOT permanent but only a lesson to reveal my true worth. Then WHY is my sparkle hidden? Well, earth people would be scorched by it, honestly. We all NEED this body to 'fit in' here in on the earth plane, that's all! I hope you all have a BRIGHT day, Daz. ~ This BLOG is dedicated to "Grieving Michael Jackson" (GMJ Facebook page) for inspiring me to write this scribble today ~ P.S. If anyone is 'intrigued' about the 'sparkle' stuff I do recommend the 'Love and light' category at MJJCommunity Blog. http://www.mjjcommunity.com/michael-jackson-blog/category/love-and-light/page/6/ |
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