10/14/2013 Family is importantMind warp of today! I've recently realized that 'family is important'. "Of course, it is" you would fret at me. Well, I used to be so 'driven' by my passion that I kind of 'scarified' moments that I view as 'lost' now. I know you should have a passion and a drive but NOT at all costs cause when you get ill, there is this 'gaping' abyss cause you 'abandoned' family, relationships and yep even friends to spend time in YOUR 'fantasy world'. Do you hear me say, it's WRONG? Nope, you should be the BEST and PASSIONATE about your craft but NOT at the cost of life and family cause today NEVER returns. It's whoosh, another memory! So, choose your memories wisely cause one day, it'll be all you have left. Try to 'mould' your craft around family time. A schedule is the BEST thing to please both your family and your muse! Daz has spoken, LOL. 10/13/2013 Life gets in the wayHey, You probably wondered what happened, right or you popped in and fretted that I didn't update the site? WHY hey? Well, as the title says... Sometimes life just gets in the way, DUH. Whether we like it or not, some stuff needs to be done that pulls us away from the stuff we love to do. I sometimes wish I would live on a deserted island with no distractions whatsoever but I know even writers need to get out into the world to soak up inspiration but its no fun if the BIG BAD world somehow 'blocks' it though. Indeed, the bed saga continues here... I've been sleeping so poorly for years exactly and I've always managed to get through the day with music and stuff but lately it was affecting my writing. I had to do sometimes about it cause writing is like breathing to me. So, I took the daring step to order a decent bed with my savings. I haven't been on Holiday for about 4 years now and so I could afford a decent one instead of curling up on a crummy mattress that woke me up in the middle of the night leaving me wondering around the flat or having to fall asleep again with music plugged in my ears. I know, I should NOT explain my absence here but I do feel guilty when life gets in the way and I can't write. So without further a do , I'll post this scribble and see if I can write something else cause TIME is indeed sometimes my enemy. Thanks for reading, Daz. 10/9/2013 meant to be You ever had the feeling that some things are meant to be? That you listen to your 'inner voice' and then have to thank him cause dreams come true if you do? I don't believe in coincidences any more. Its like NOW, you need to be there. NOT tomorrow, NOT yesterday, NOW! I hope its not my imagination running wild but I was gonna buy a new mattress at a local store, quite a cheap one and that's why I went out but then believe it or not, they were all sold out! I'm in desperate need of a decent Mattress. Been sleeping on worn out ones for the past 4 years! I've seen there was a new store and my Muse told me to pop in to at least check one out. Well, Friday they are delivering and installing a decent bed with a decent mattress for once and it's KINGSIZE too. Well, compare 90 to 160 cm and WOW. I had other 'incidents' that my Muse 'fretted' I needed to pop into that store and you'll see and yep, they got the stuff I wanted on offer. Funny, really! There is indeed MORE than the eye can see! I'm chuffed today, Daz. 10/4/2013 sigh and rant scribbleOkay, this is the sigh or rant of today... It's better to rant than to bottle it up and explode as they say! Well, I don't get folks these days. They make decisions with no backbone or real thought. There is no logic or common sense in it and they do ONE thing and then CLAIM the other thing. Quite frustrating! WHY? I think you should do GOOD and THINK before you 'destroy' someone or BIG UP someone that doesn't 'deserve' it! I guess the 'sore fact' is that the world runs on $$$$ and Reputation and that TLC is only meant for stories and fairy tales and the ones who spread the message of L.O.V.E get 'hunted' down and 'ridiculed' cause society is all about 'divide and conquer', right? I'm ranting here, I know but I just need to get that off my chest. I just wish people would THINK more before they ACT instead of 'follow the crowd'. The sigh in all of this is... The result of the AEG trial is so wrong to me. It has NOTHING to do with who lost and who wins here, in my opinion! ONLY with the fact that it was a $$$$ thang and instead of getting 'monetary justice', Michael's image is 'smeared' even more and the MURDERER got his 'field day' cause now he got the 'confirmation' that he's a 'competent' Doctor cause he HAD a license. It sickens me to this day that okay, he had a license and an oath to obey to HELP people in NEED! What did he DO? EX- DR MURRAY BROKE EVERY BLOODY RULE IN PATIENT CARE! Still, he sits there with a smirk on his face like 'It wasn't me, I cared for Michael'. Sure, where do you think Michael is now? Is he here seeing his kids growing into beautiful people? Is he here spreading his love to all who needs it? Is he still here fulfilling his mission? Nah, cause due to the 'competence' of that quack Doctor, Michael lives in heaven and changed the lives of Millions. It's so damn easy to put the blame on someone that can't defend himself any more and that put trust in 'competent' doctors cause they have an oath to HELP people! I have accepted that Michael lives in heaven, I really DO, okay! Still, It doesn't take the PAIN away of how Michael was 'mistreated' and 'left to die' by a 'competent' Doctor. END OF RANT... Thanks for reading, lovelies. Daz. 10/2/2013 the life of Michael's girlI woke up with this in mind... How is the life of a Michael's girl? Heehee... It reminded me of the T-shirt Michael wore in June 2009. One he got from a fan that said 'Curls for my girls'. I know people have 'misconceptions' about us. They 'fret' that we live in a different world and that we should just 'snap' out of it and become like them, full of hate and greed. Well, that's NOT what Michael taught me though! Anyway, when I wake up the first thing I do is 'the 2 minute bathroom break' and then I pop in my earphones with Michael's music. A full 2 hours of Michael pumping in my ear fully charges my 'brain battery' cause since 2009 I have my 'energy battery' that is leaking when I don't bathe in Michael's glow. Additionally listening to MJJC radio or my 'life saver' when I'm on the go keeps my brain functioning on a 'top level' . On HOME days, I do my Michaeling in the morning. On College days, I do it in the evening then. Though, I pop into MJJC during my 'cookie breaks' as to 'recharge' a little. Michaeling is simply browsing FB for Michael piccies, Michael facts and then spreading the L.O.V.E around on my FB pages. Then I head over to my SOUL home at MJJC. I'm the 'Resident writer' which means I frequently update MJJCBlog with witty blogs and heartfelt Michael theme stories. My task is to 'preserve and honour the legacy of Michael Jackson' what I do with all my heart. I admit, it hasn't been easy these 4 years but I would never give in cause Michael never quitted too even when all hope was lost, he kept on going cause that's what WINNERS do. Besides, my 'writing' stuff, I also love to be an MJ Ambassador, like holding hands with the MJ fam when they are 'down and out'. We are 'raised' as ONE family. So every MJJC member is part of the MJ family so we SUPPORT each other in bright and gloomy days. I usually end the day with my lullaby song 'Water' when I had a hectic day cause then my brain knows it has to be quiet now cause my body needs to sleep. I once had the comment that I didn't have a life? Gee, I do, Hun. I have loving parents that I love to visit. I have dear friends that I love to talk too. I do have a household to run though I have a 'perfect boyfriend' and 'special kids'. I go to College to get my Graduate degree now so I can at least look for a 'decent' job. Yep, I have 'disability' and NO, I can't stay at HOME with it. I don't even want to 'leech' and act like a 'cactus on a windowsill'. I still have dreams and I'm still 'skilled' and have 'talents' to show off. Oh, I'm a storyteller too, in case you didn't know by now LOL, with an ever nagging and babbling Muse. I love to take care of animals and I love to do charity work too. It's all in Michael's name, hey! Daz 10/1/2013 belong somewhereYep, I have finally realized that I belong somewhere in the world outside the MJ bubble. It was scary at first but now I know. This Graduate thingy I'm studying now is real COOL even more COOL than the Basics of library knowledge though I'm glad I did this first cause its indeed 'quite confusing' if you haven't heard the library terms before and the pace is quite higher in this course too. I must admit, I got a little 'bored and sleepy' last lesson cause he let us just browse through different databases with no 'base' of why and then he woke me up LOL by saying you could build your own. I was suddenly elated and I couldn't wait so I'm already building it. I'm really starting to talk like a 'PC geek' lately. It's a passion that keeps you afloat cause I felt lost and abandoned and now I've found my spot again. What a REAL bonus is? I can grow as a writer doing the research for my 'database' homework and getting a degree with it too. Just to proof the a$$holes that being an 'invalid' is NOT equal with being a 'doormat' or a 'cactus on the windowsill' * Sticks out tongue* Blehhhhh... Daz. |
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